I would have to say that I have often looked at other people’s lives and thought that I should do what they do,because they are successful and so if I followed in their path I too shall be successful. In the absence of knowing what I wanted in my life I filled my goals with others dreams. And when I didn’t have the success the others had, I felt worthless. My problem wasn’t failing at others jobs, my problem was chasing others dreams.

I had to find what I wanted to do and succeed at that…but what was that going to be? And so my search began. I wasn’t quite sure what i wanted to do, but I knew what I didn’t want to do. Day after day I searched for my life path to success. And after I realized that what I wanted to do…psychology, I headed back to college. College was a long process. I had to take boring and insignificant classes that were prerequisites but felt like a waste of time. Month after month I went to class and did my work and after three years I began to lose my direction and focus and was tempted by offers others were making. An amazing networking company opportunity that with hard work I could change people’s lives and it could make me rich. I bit. I fell in love with this new venture of a weight loss program. I loved the product I was selling and what it was doing for my customers( I still love it). But it wasn’t my passion. After 39 years I finally found what I wanted to do when I grew up, and I was putting it to the side because of my quest for money. I took off a semester of school to focus on growing my new business. Although I saw many of my friends become very monetary successful with this new business, was it what “I” wanted? I was confused.

There was no guarantee that I was going to be successful in this new business, but I did love what I was doing. I met many new people in which many of them changed their lives. I spent day after day studying the business and talking to everyone I knew about the program. But what I learned was that I loved helping people. I loved seeing them change their life. I wasn’t crazy about the business part of the program. The business made me step outside my comfort zone, which really wasn’t a bad thing. I learned many things that I would have never done before this venture. I was thankful about the life lessons I learned, but there were still a lot of things I didn’t like about it. Things I didn’t want to do not because I had been psychologically unable to follow though, but simply because I really didn’t want to do it. I could do these things, I just really didn’t want to.

I loved helping people reach their goals I loved helping them feel good about themselves. The more I saw the change in people the more I realized that its helping people change that I wanted to do. The weight loss was only one aspect of the helping. I decided to finish school and not be a millionaire in the new company, because money wasn’t’ my goal. Helping people was my goal. But how do I step away from an opportunity to make lots of money? Not easily. How do I tell the people who I believe in the product, believe in the business, but don’t want to do it?

I must look crazy. But at this point in my life, if I stuck with that business I would have been living someone else’s dream. My journey to my goal my have been long and I had to remember not to get distracted on my path. My happiness and my life is my own and I had to find my own way.

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